the good time`s are gone..

its such a bad day for me.. there are times when i really wanted capucino to be with me on those bad times.. its very selfish for me to be sad alone.. not to tell capucino. mom said something which i think hurts me much... i dont like to hear all those stupid pharses from her.. its mean to say it.. yes i am wat i am. if they dont seem to like my way of doing things they i would just like them to leave.. i may seem happy all the time. but in fact i am not.. is there a place of happyness in my life.. will there be such a place called nirvana.. a heaven on earth.. i will like to seek for it. i wan to be there with my loved one.. my capucino.. i wanted to cry now. but the onli thing that can make me shed my tears is capucino.. its hard to keep these sad tears.. these moments are hard even for the strongest warior.. the battel in life has jus begin for barista. i wish to end it with peace.. with no blood shed..