long long time...

it feels nice to jus come in here once in a while jus to express myself. for the past few days my mind has beed thinking of the questions and answers that is really stupid n crazy. the fact is really unsure even for the smartest to know. even for math to calculate. there is a saying. that the PAST is HISTORY, TOMORROW is the FUTURE, but NOW..i mean NOW is PRESENT. these words really made me think deep in my roots. how i was brought up. my past my future n my present. i am happy to know that i have a really loving girlfriend. a good family. everything seem so nice. but life is always full of lies. i really don know where i will be heading to down the road. i hope all the best. i hope everything is ment to be in place. i would not want judgement by people. i would wan judgement by GOD. how is there people living by judging other. who are they. y dont they live thier life jus how they were ment to be. y cant i live the life that i wanted. must everything be under judgement. must everything about money n power. must we live our life in total control by these unvaluable creations.. there is nothing greater then love in this world. but wat is love without money. there links. life is linked no mater wat. how can i solve the problem. there will always be a way to solve. i am thinking of one. i wanted a guide. a light. someone to show me how to do. how to choose. this is a vr vr important task. for the one who will take it. i really wanted it to be her. its really such a hard task. i jus wanted something more...

bad day + bad timing = bad mood

sometimes a simple request can be catastrofic. i dont know wat other think of this question but for me its quite lame.... a question can make alot of changes in thier life n the way they think. first of all patiens is all it needs rite. but when a persons EQ is super low the really are super low. try think of it in another way. nothing is the way it was supposed to be. i do no say that my EQ is higher than anyone elses but the fact is that my EQ is for sure higher than those older then me. the way they think really makes me puke to the max. really make me think of the situation that i am standing. my status my value. if none of that matters here then y am i still here. its better if i jus leave n let everyone have a plesent day for the rest of thier stupid life... but anyways.. this really is not the worst.. the most unplesent part is really dark... its even darker then the night. that really i would not wan to share.

sometimes. sometimes

its hard for me sometimes. i really wanted to be a good --. coincidence really can make a difference. there is alot of these electronic items that really help out human. when they act agains human it really sucks

what a day.....

its a happy start for today.. i had plans for everything. i thought that everything is in my control. i started the day of with a big breakfast at my own shop.. happy village. then after the breakfast i went to pick up my mom. she went shopping for weekly goods for happy village. she bought a lot of fries. shit..... a whole car full. after the pick up over in tesco i went back n purpose the raya set n buka puasa set as a promotion over in happy village. that went well.. mom accepted all the purposal. its like bingo for me.. hahaha super happy indeed. i had been thinking of capucino ever since. she went back from church a tired day for her. then for the past whole month capucino has been tired n under alot of stress. study for her exam. all her assignments. all her homeworks. everything had to be done over in her uni`s library. all she need now is a broadband which i had purchase for her today.. yes.. that went well also. the modem is operational on monday itself.. ohhh so nice. then i went to pick up my god mom.. all the way over in klia. such a long drive. ita a happy drive too. anna jie jie accompany me with her son jaz..... so happy.. we talked all the way there. then i was bz calling my god mom over at the phone. i was worried that she went bck to ipoh by bus. as i reached there i was sure that her flight was delayed. indeed it was. i asked at the reception area for the flight at london towards klia.. then the reception lady said it was delayed. then i went back out to the parking n waited. i was afraid that my car will be issued a parking ticket due to violation... omg... i was issued twice over there.. haizzzz such disapointment.. but its okie.lucky this time it was all safe n sound. then after i picked up my noisy god mom we chat chat all the way from klia until klang.. huhuhu. i felt sorry for anna jie n jaz. but they were having a good time. jaz was bz occupying himself with his psp n anna jie snozzzzz all the way back... hahaha... it was a good rest time for her. cos she looked tired.. after i drop off anna jie n jaz i sent my god mom to the bank to cash out some money. then we went for a nice meal of bah kut teh. she said she was craving for malaysian food for one month.. then she went all in over at the bah kut teh shop.. omg.... i was shocked to see her eat her heart out. but we enjoy the bah kut teh time. there is jus one thing missing in that picture. that will be my capucino. if she was there it would all be perfect... the end is all the bad things. i would not like to talk about it.... its jus super bad

its been so long.....

its been long since i had sign in and blogged... anyways... the purpose for my blogging life is for my dear capucino. its been almost 3 month that i had written anything. out of a sudden i had a mood to write. its been 9 month and 7 days that i had been with my capucino. all this time its nothing but joy n laughter. yes we had been tru ups n down. its the bit n parcels of life. that the only way bond can grow stronger. the way we can be together. for this past few month i had been thinking. i really wanted to be with my dear n i would not want to be without her for even one second. but as a man there is always choises to be made. to be with capucino is all i wanted.. i will be with her for now n forever.

love in need is love indeed

love is always in need by everyone.. but my love is specific.. jus for some one so special.. the person who will light up the darkest days.. who will chill up the hottes days... the person indeed is the one who is truly loved by thy.. she is not only someone special.. yet one in a million.. like every zebra has a different stripe.. yes a plain lady in the eyes of the norm.. but in my eyes she is the only one that i will pledge to live for now n my whole life.. as i had left TM for 2 days now.. my heart is still missing all that is left over there.. the women that i loved very much.. i wish to be by her side each n every minuet.. our world is filled with sweet words which can make the honey seem tasteless. never the less its spoken from inside my heart.. to see her smile everyday is the motive of my life .. yes love.. love.

i want to dedicate this poem to my sweet heart.. that i mish deeply she will like..

A special world for you and me

A special bond one cannot see

It wraps us up in its cocoon

And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold

Gently nestling us to the fold

Like silken thread it holds us fast

Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break

A new one forms in its wake

To bind us closer and keep us strong

In a special world, where we belong.

this is onli the right begining

its been a very long time since barista had bloged... its because the love for capucino has evolved into a true tie... its more than a few words published on the internet will make any difference.. its a bond of true love. an ever living breathing bond of love..there is more comitment that barista had to put up.. money.. future.. family.. work.. more is coming to barista path to success.. the onli person who will be by barista is capucino.. the onli true frend.. a frend that is bonded by love. a love that will never end by jus an easy good bye.. the love that barista had now is forever more.. he might had forgotten the promises.. but his heart will forever be with capucino.. this will never fade.. as a rock will turn to sand by the elements of nature..baristas love will never change.. it will grow day by day.. changing n getting stronger as every second pass.. there has been alot of happy n unhappy things that is not stated by barista.. its kept as a memory sealed within barista n capucino.. i love u my capucino.. this moment barista eyes is filling with tears.. but this is not an occasion to cry.. i love u capucino...